In my head it is the opposite of orderly. Everything is jumbled up- my thoughts never ending. Thinking about my future, college, and the choices I’ll have to make adds to this chaos and I’m left having to sort through it all and consider what is most important. I put everything into a sort of order, most important to least. Which at first glance seems easy because it’s integrated into our heads that school is the most important indicator for what kind of lives we will lead. But then once you think about it, it’s so much harder than that.

     Taking into consideration relationships being formed, pressure from friends and family to pursue something or engage in certain behaviors, choosing to study 24/7 or take a much needed break. If we were like robots it would be easier to do one thing after another like clockwork but that’s just not who we are despite what society is encouraging. Sometimes I have to take a step back and breathe- realize that I’m human and I have time to figure things out, I force myself to be at peace with my disorganized brain and take it one step at a time. I listen and follow my own orders and nobody else's.  

     My photo shows myself with a confused and stressed expression, surrounded by words which are supposed to represent my never-ending stream of thoughts. I chose to do it in black and white because I felt the contrast with the words was better when the photo was void of all color. I was originally going to include pictures instead of words but I felt words gave it a more overwhelming look and the way they are cropped shows how disordered everything is. The only thing I would do differently, is take more time editing little details near my hair because it was rushed.